By the way, I'm still angry at him.

You might not understand why yet. It's because I gave him so much of myself, and I really really do want him to be worthy of what I gave, what I did. It cost me a lot despite how much I loved him. And if he is indeed the cheating, lying cad that he seems to be, then... it'll be very difficult to live with what I did. Even more difficult than I find it now.